And it's always hard when I can't meet with exactness the specifications of the program. It's easy to get down. I just need to remember that I'm doing the best I can and really, that's all I can expect. It's hard not to compare myself with others, but I'm learning and teaching myself that it's my pride that makes me feel bad. C. S. Lewis said it well when he said, "Pride gets no pleasure out of having something, only out of having more of it than the next man...It is the comparison that makes you proud; the pleasure of being above the rest. Once the element of competition has gone, pride has gone." I read the talk on pride by President Benson last week and have been pondering on it since then. I love where he says "The proud depend upon the world to tell them whether they have value or not. Their self esteem is determined by where they are judged to be on the ladders of worldly success. They feel worthwhile as individuals if the numbers beneath them in achievement, talent, beauty, or intellect are large enough. Pride is ugly. It says, "If you succeed, I am a failure." If we love God, do His will, and fear His judgment more than men's, we will have self esteem." I need to remember why I run in the first place. It's not to be faster than anyone else, or even beat my previous times. It's because I love to run and the way it makes me feel. It's shown and taught me so many lessons that I don't know if I would have learned any other way. Pride is truly something I need to work on everyday of my life. I'm so grateful for modern prophets to give me instruction on how to overcome myself.
7:30 Kashi cereal with blueberries and milk and vitamins
9:00 run with 12 oz. accelerade
10:30 1/2 serving Endurox R4
11:15 starving so drank 4 oz. juice mixed with 1/2 scoop protein powder