Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Born to Run, sore calves, and upcoming plans

The week after the half was pretty uneventful. School started, I tried to find myself a new schedule and then we packed up and left on vacation. Yep, I pulled my kids out of school after 4 whole days. And I got up most mornings to work out while we were gone. It was actually fun working out somewhere different. And although I really wanted to run on the beach, I couldn't bring myself to ditch the family for a run.
On another note, I read Born to Run. I really enjoyed it. It wasn't your typical running book, it was a novel. It had a great story that had me excited to see how it ended. It was hard to put down. And it had all sorts of great running stuff in it too. I can see how the barefoot revolution happened because of this book. The way he explains the architecture of the foot just makes sense. One thing I was very disappointed in was the language. And I'm really disappointed that nobody warned me about it. I haven't been exposed to that kind of language since high school. But I was so wrapped up in the story I couldn't put it down. I won't lend it out without a warning to my friends.
So I'd really like to try barefoot running. Not exclusively. With the winters around here I don't know how it would be possible. Except on the treadmill, I guess. And I know better than to jump right into something new because I've learned that's the best way to get injured. I've thought about the Vibram 5 fingers. I just can't seem to do it. Whether it's because I'll be different and weird or be called monkey feet or because I'm not really sure it will work or not, I just haven't gotten up the guts to order them. I read Chi Running about 3 years ago and they have similar form suggestions.
The latest Runner's World issue was just perfect for me this month. It was all about trail running (which I've come to love and wish there were more trails around here) and then it had some exercises for strengthening the feet and injury prevention for common ailments. I go barefoot a lot just around the house. So I don't think I'm starting totally from scratch. Some programs I've seen start with just walking around without shoes for 15 minutes a day. So I tried running on the treadmill barefoot. It was good. I didn't push the speed at all, just tried to memorize what it felt like. I tried to see where my foot naturally landed under my body, where I landed on my foot, and how lightly I was landing. Every day since then I have put my lightest shoes on and tried to mimic the movement. After the first day I could barely walk. My calves hurt so bad. Each day has been a little bit better but they're still sore. I have been doing calf strengthening exercises as well. Hopefully I will get used to this new style of running. Because of this I have not been running long distances. It's almost like I'm starting over again. But maybe this time it will be for the better. I am just so sick of getting injured. The farthest I've run doing the new style is 5 miles. I hope to improve that a bit this weekend by doing 7-8 slower than I've been going.
I've been thinking about my plans for the fall and winter. Here is what I've come up with: October and November- long runs of 10-12 miles on the weekends. December- long runs of 14 miles. January- start speed work, long runs of 15-16 miles. February- alternate hills with speed work, long runs of 16-18 miles. March- add in some tempo runs, start 18-20 mile runs in preparation for spring marathon. I'm hoping that my body will get used to running longer so that marathon training doesn't seem so tough on my body. I'm hoping to get fueling worked out. I've been sick to my stomach the last 2 marathons and have thrown up. Something's not working and I need time to figure it out. I've tried raisins the last couple of long runs and they've worked well. Has anyone tried honey?
So now your opinions... is this plan sounding good? Is it too aggressive? Am I setting myself up for injury? Have you tried barefoot running or have you been tempted to try? Are you afraid of being called a monkey feet? Do you have good information to share with me?

The last few weeks:
Tuesday: 3 mile run
Wednesday: 3 mile run

Monday: 4 mile run, full body weights
Tuesday: 2 1/2 mile run barefoot
Wednesday: walked one million miles in Disneyland
Thursday: 4 1/2 mile run, full body weights
Saturday: 5 mile trail run (I got lost, came to a dead end and ended up hiking straight down to get back on the trail. It was eventful.)

Monday: 5 mile run
Tuesday: 4 mile run
Wednesday: 3 1/2 mile run
Thursday: 4 mile run
Friday: cycling class (12 miles)
Saturday: 4.5 mile run (1.5 miles barefoot)

Monday: 4 mile run, full body weights
Tuesday: 4 mile run
Wednesday: 5 mile run, full body weights

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Top of Utah 1/2 Marathon

This is the 3rd year in a row that I have run this race. It's always the last Saturday before the kids go back to school and a great way to end the summer. Plus it's a beautiful course and each year I've run it with friends. This year was no exception. My first year I ran it with Jodi, last year with Heather, and this year with both of them and Jody S. This was Jody's first 1/2 marathon. I was so proud of her for achieving her goal. She had an injury along the way but was still able to pull it off- and do it very well.

The starting line was perfect weather and all through the canyon was great. But as soon as the sun came out it really started heating up. I kept up with Heather and Jodi until about mile 10. I had been battling a massive side stitch the whole way. It would ease up and then get worse. I really didn't talk much, I just tried to breath easy and relax so that dang side ache would go away. Finally I stopped and walked for a minute or two and it went away. The last couple of miles were long. I crossed the finish line strong though and was happy. My time was 2:07. Not too great considering that last year was 2:00. It was much warmer this year and I really didn't feel great. And the best part was that I wasn't even bummed about my time. I just had a great time with good friends. Sure, a PR would have been great. I guess they can't all be great race days. After I got some gatorade and a banana we went to stand in the shirt exchange line. (Shirts were severely undersized.) I started to not feel so great. I was dizzy and lightheaded and a little nauseous. It passed but I still didn't feel good all the way home. After I jumped out of the shower I still felt like crap so I hopped on the scale and discovered that I'd lost 5 lbs from the morning. (Yes, I weigh myself pretty much everyday.) No wonder I wasn't feeling good. After drinking lots of water and refueling myself I felt much better. All in all, a good race!

Getting ready to leave at 5:15 a.m.
Renee, Jodi, Heather, and me.
Crazy socks again- telling myself it's just for fun!

Waiting to start!



Jodi, Heather, me, Jody, and her hubby Doran after the race is over.

Here's what the last couple of weeks have looked like for me:
Friday: cycling class (12 miles)
Saturday: 18 mile run (yeah, I know. But I had NO pain so I think I'm finally healed!)

Monday: weight class, 5 mile trail run
Tuesday: 26 mile bike ride
Wednesday: weight class
Thursday: 6.5 mile run
Saturday: 15 mile run

Monday: weight class
Tuesday: 6 mile run
Thursday: 17 mile bike ride
Saturday: Top of Utah 1/2 marathon

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Back at it.

Beth's post yesterday was just what I've been struggling to put into words. Being injured is hard. Not running is sometimes harder than getting out there and pounding out the miles. But being injured sure gives an appreciation and an affirmation as to the "why?" behind why we run. Everyone runs for different reasons. And sometimes the reasons may change as quickly as the days. Sometimes it's for a chance to be alone. That doesn't happen very often for us mom's and we relish alone time. Sometimes it's to clear the brain and sometimes it's to think things over. Sometimes it's to prove that I can do things that I wouldn't have imagined that I could accomplish. Sometimes it's just to be outside, to be in nature. Sometimes it's because there's a race looming in the distance and I know that I need to put in the miles to be ready. But whatever the reason is on that specific day, I run because I love it. I love the feeling I get after running and sometimes even during running.
Being injured always reminds me that I love running. Maybe it's my personality or maybe it's human nature that when we can't have something, we want it all the more. Biking has been my saving grace this go around. And even though I've been able to put in some long runs without pain and I think I'm mostly healed, I am still enjoying the bike and plan on making it a permanent part of my routine. Now if I could only get the swimming thing down, I might consider a triathlon.
In the meantime, I've discovered a great mountain biking trail that I'd NEVER ride a bike on, but it's a great place to run. You cross through a tunnel, it has bridges that cross mountain streams, hills, sheer drop offs, and some wicked downhill switch backs that make you feel like you are flying. There are wildflowers, butterflies, and to be honest, I can't believe it's so close to my home. It's almost like being in another world. Running on that trail makes me feel like I'm a kid again. Seriously, there's a smile plastered on my face the whole time. It's my new favorite place to run. It reminds me of a Runner's World Daily Kick in the Butt quote. Goes like this, "We run, not because we think it is doing us good, but because we enjoy it and cannot help ourselves...The more restricted our society and work become, the more necessary it will be to find some outlet for this craving for freedom. No one can say, 'You must not run faster than this, or jump higher than that.' The human spirit is indomitable. "
Sir Roger Bannister -first runner to run a sub 4 minute mile.
Running makes me feel free.
I was seriously contemplating running a fall marathon. I ran a 14 miler and survived. I planned on trying a 16 miler and then committing. But I really don't feel like my hip is totally better and I really want to be able to run through the winter. So even though I feel kind of left out, I will cheer on my friends who are running fall marathons and hopefully will be able to join them in the spring.
And now for your viewing pleasure, some sunsets I've seen while riding my bike with the husband in the evening. I haven't even mentioned how great that's been. I really look forward to riding with him in the evenings, talking about our day. It's like a bunch of little midweek mini dates. I love it.



And I know these are totally boring, but logging my exercise helps me look back and see what works and what doesn't. So you can just ignore this part!

Saturday: 4 mile run

Monday: 17 mile bike ride
Tuesday: 38 mile bike ride, 4 mile run
Wednesday: weight class, 13 mile bike ride
Thursday: 4.5 mile run
Friday: weight class, cycling class (10 miles)
Saturday: 5 mile dam race, 5 mile run home down the canyon

Monday: weight class, 23 mile bike ride
Tuesday: 29 mile bike ride
Wednesday: weight class, 5 mile run
Saturday: 14 mile run, 10 mile bike ride

Monday: 5 mile run
Tuesday: 39 mile bike ride
Wednesday: weight class, 4.5 mile run
Friday: cycling class (10 miles)

Monday: cycling class (12 miles)
Tuesday: 21 mile bike ride, 2 mile run
Wednesday: 11 mile trail run
Thursday: 11 mile bike ride

Monday: 6 mile run with 4 hills
Tuesday: 26 mile bike ride
Wednesday: weight class, 13 mile bike ride
Thursday: 5 mile trail run, 21 mile bike ride

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Blue Betty

I've been really good friends with my bike lately. She's a hybrid, not a road bike and not a mountain bike. She really is a good looking bike. I got her last year but once it got cold, I was done. Riding Blue Betty doesn't hurt my hip at all and it actually feels like it's getting better. And in the process I've found that I really like riding. It's usually never too hot to go out since you have a nice breeze blowing the whole time. And the miles go by much quicker than running and it feels good to go fast. I've always been afraid of going fast, o.k. more like afraid of wrecking while going fast. But the more I ride, the more confident I'm getting. Blue Betty is the first bike I've had since I was a kid and it's the first bike I've ever had with gears. Everything about it has been a learning experience. It's surprising to see how much my once a week cycling class has done for me. It's taught me the proper positioning on a bike (bend like a Barbie at the waist and don't hunch over, that cadence is more important than speed, to shift down on the uphills and keep my cadence the same, to shift up if I'm even slightly bouncing on the seat, to move back in the saddle a little to relieve some pressure on that rear end, and work on scraping through the 3 and 9 positions on the pedals rather than just pushing down. Of course that last one's been hard to do since I've just been wearing my running shoes until yesterday.

Yesterday was the big day that I've been dreading for a while now. I've heard horror stories of people not being able to clip out of their pedals and falling down at stop signs. But since my mileage on the bike has gone up and my feet have started aching I decided it was probably time to get those clippity clop shoes give it a shot. Really, biking shoes are so much different than running. There's as stiff as can be, no flexibility at all, set you back on your heels, and are fairly tight fitting. No thumbs room in the toe there. But there's one thing they're the same in; they're both expensive. I don't want to admit how long it actually took me to figure out how to even clip in the first one. But after I did, there was the second problem of how to get the other one clipped in while now moving and balancing on the bike. I'm sure if anyone was watching me, they were getting in a good laugh. Probably pulling out their cameras for an America's Funniest Home Video moment. Once I got clipped in though, it wasn't bad. So I went for a little ride. Wow, there is a huge difference between pedaling in shoes and being clipped in. For one thing, it works your hamstrings. I know this because I was already sore there and I could feel almost every movement. However, this makes it so that you get a really even workout. It also makes for a smoother, slightly faster ride. As I rode around my usual loop, I realized that I was going to have to stop and cross main street. I had unclipped at a couple of stop signs but had plenty of time to get clipped back in across a not busy street. I unclipped about a block away just to be sure and was able to clip back in fairly easily. I turned the corner to get back to home very pleased with how well I had done. As I was congratulating myself about my good job, I pulled into the driveway, put on the brakes and realized that I wasn't unclipped as I fell to the ground. Yep, congratulations Jen, you made it clear to the driveway and then wiped out standing still. Nice. After bandaging up my knee I went out again lesson learned. Unclip before you brake and don't be cocky.

Lastly, the thing I love the most about biking is the smells. I don't know why I don't notice them running. Maybe it's a speed thing. But I can smell the best smells while out riding. Grass being freshly mowed, roses blooming, the trees, and the further away from town I get the better it gets. There's fresh hay being cut, hot dirt (I don't know why I like this smell, maybe it reminds me of my childhood), even the water in the ditches smells good. I love being outdoors and seeing some really great scenery. I'm going to take my camera next time because it's absolutely beautiful.

So this is what I've been up to the last couple of weeks: I hope to mix some more running in there as my hip is feeling better all the time. But for now I'm just really enjoying my time riding Blue Betty.

Monday- weight class, 20 mile bike ride
Tuesday- 22 mile bike ride
Wednesday- weight class, 11 mile bike ride, 3 mile hike with the Cub Scouts
Thursday- 15 mile bike ride
Friday- cycling class (12 miles), 28 mile bike ride
Saturday- 10 mile run

Monday- weight class, 29 mile bike ride
Tuesday- 20 mile bike ride
Wednesday- weight class
Thursday- 4 mile run, 17 mile bike ride
Friday- cycling class (10 miles) 22 mile bike ride

Monday, June 28, 2010

Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay 2010

Do you believe in miracles? I do. And I'm not just talking about the little everyday miracles either, although I totally believe those happen and most of the time we just don't recognize them. What I'm talking about here is a full blown miracle that you can't deny just happened. Well, I experienced both of those kinds of miracles on my Ragnar race a little over a week ago. Some of the little miracles were discovering that our cooler's plug wasn't done up and water was leaking all over our van, getting into our bags and soaking Natalie's car. The miraculous part was that we discovered it not too far from Mel's brother's house and he met us while Jennifer was running her first leg. They got it all cleaned up with a shop vac and we were on our way without Jennifer even knowing what had happened. Another small miracle was just our team. Last year was scary enough not knowing anyone on my team and having us all get along so well. This year I wasn't as worried, yet you never know what is going to happen with 6 women who are sleep deprived, hungry and tired. I'm so happy to report that we all got along so well. I feel so lucky to have been with those women for the 29 ish hours that we spent together. I feel like I have two new good friends and am so grateful for the other 3 that already were my good friends. It's hard to put into words how much I look up to these women and how much I respect and love them. It was a privilege. I also got to see Angie who was on our team last year. She's one amazing runner (she ran the Ragnar leg this year- my hero) and a good friend. I was really excited to run into her. It was a miracle because out of the 12,000 people that were there, I saw her.

Now, on to the actual race and the BIG miracle. I was really good the week before. I ran a 4 miler on that Monday, biked 16 miles on Tuesday and did nothing on Wednesday and Thursday. Thursday night we all got together to decorate our car and pack it up. Since we had to be up at around 3:30 a.m., it was a good idea to get as much ready the night before.


The morning came really fast. It was hard starting out sleep deprived since I knew it was just going to get worse. But adrenaline kicked in and we started at the bright hour of 5 a.m. I was feeling pretty good. Still, just delivering water and walking around on Friday, I could feel my hip. To say I was nervous about my upcoming runs was an understatement.




We became friends with this group of runners. The kings and queens. They all had really "interesting" outfits. You'll see more of them later.

Being the 6th and final runner in our van made the nerves worse. However, as I finally got started on my first leg I was calm and ready to go. I was even excited. My first leg was a mile uphill and then 6 more down. All I could think on that uphill stretch was how uncomfortable I was and if I couldn't handle this mile of uphill, how was I going to do that 8 mile canyon run. Pretty soon I crested the top and had a gorgeous view of the valley below. The next couple of miles of downhill were more like an obstacle course than anything. It was steep, rocky, rutted out and although I was trying my best to control my speed so as not to damage my quads totally, I kind of flew down the canyon. By the bottom, I could already feel my quads. But here's the miraculous part; My hip didn't hurt. I felt it for just a moment but it went away and the downhill seemed to be the hardest on it before. Once I hit the pavement I felt really good and running into the exchange was awesome! There were so many people, I was just glad to find my crew. As we were heading back to the van, we saw Angie.

Here I come!


Up the rest of the way. It was simply gorgeous!



We headed out for some downtime to eat and relax a little before our next run. We had plenty of wheat thins, sandwich fixings and string cheese. It felt good to just lay there on the grass for a while. It was at this next exchange that our team was forced to wait at the bottom of the hill for 15 minutes until the exchange was officially open. If he would have come up the hill we would have been penalized 2 hours and would have been made to wait there. Crazy. Some teams had to wait 1/2 hour. This was the curse of being one of the first groups to start. Another curse was not being able to pass a lot of people because there just weren't a lot of runners on the road the same time we were. But the big blessing of being first was that we were the first to use the porta potties. I was the first to undo the toilet paper on several of them. If you're not a runner that doesn't seem like a big deal. But if you've been one of the unfortunate ones who's been in the porta potty when it's chuck full and totally stinky, you know what I mean. Being first had it's advantages.


Pretty soon we were off and running again and it was getting hot. I prepared myself by soaking my head with cool water. Felt so cold, but oh so good once I got going. Again, I was shocked that my hip wasn't hurting. I could feel my quads though. The first mile I felt like I had dead legs. They loosened up nicely but the tired feeling was still there. Mentally I had broken this run into parts. I was going to take the first 3 1/2 miles nice and easy. I knew there was a small dip in the elevation and I could catch my breath. Then another 1/2 mile and it would be half way over. I decided to break the last 4 into 2 mile parts, I knew I could do that. I really was proud of myself for pacing so well. I'm not generally good at that, especially on hills. I like to power through them and get it over with. However, this was an 8 mile hill and that wasn't going to be happening. I wouldn't let myself go under 10 minute miles unless it was during the small reprieves in the hill. Pretty soon I looked down at my watch and had gone 4 1/2 miles. More than halfway! Sometime in the next couple of miles I could feel my calves getting tight. I really have to give my team credit for the support they gave me. It seemed like they were just always right around the corner with drinks and water to dump on me. They brought me pretzels and raisins but the calf cramps started anyway. It was tough. I never got discouraged though. I knew I was going to make it. And I was really happy. I walked quite a bit the last couple of miles. But they were always there cheering me on.



More funny than this guy's afro wig and ladies underwear was his apologizing for passing me and having me look at his rear end. We leapfrogged with each other for a while but he ended up getting in his van for a change of outfits. It was just too hot for that wig. And the rest of him was getting sunburned as well.

There are 2 really big inclines at the end of this 8 mile uphill. One was about a mile long and steep and the last one was fairly short but very steep. At the bottom of the last hill I stopped and stretched out my calves as best I could and ran the whole way up the last hill and down the straight away to the exchange. Passing it off and knowing it was over was a great feeling. I really had a sense of accomplishment. It was possibly the hardest run of my life except a full marathon. It was also a run that taught me about the support of a team. I could not have done that run by myself. They were always right there to encourage and support me. And poor Mel had to massage my salty, sweaty calves when it locked up stepping up into the car. That's when you know who your true friends are! I made a lot of friends during that run with the people who were suffering like I was. It was fun to see some of them at the finish and get a lot of high fives. They really know what I went through. I know that someone else could have done that run better than me, but they let me do it and finish it and conquer that hill. And again NO hip pain.

Here's our kings and queens friend again. He's lost the cape and a few other important items of clothing.



We cruised over to our "sleeping" spot, a high school gym floor. We ate a spaghetti dinner that was SO good, sponge bathed ourselves and changed into nice dry clothes.
Here again, being the first had its advantages. The gym wasn't smelly, yet. It wasn't crowded, we got wrestling mats to sleep on, and the bathrooms were so clean. We laid down and even with ear plugs there was just too much noise to settle down and actually sleep. It could have had something to do with my awesome run that I just had and all the adrenaline that was still flowing. After about 2 hours it was time to get up and go again to meet the rest of our team for our last leg.



By this time everyone was pretty tired. It was funny to see how everyone was so energetic after their run and then crashed by the next runner. My final leg was 3 miles. My legs were really hurting now, both the quads and the calves. I was pretty worried about how I was even going to run on them because I was having trouble even walking like a normal person. But once I got out there at 5 a.m. and after about 1/2 mile, I started cruising. Everything loosened up and I really booked it that last mile. I sprinted to the end and passed off that baton. It was so rewarding. Again, no hip pain. However everything else hurt. Stopping was the hardest part. Everything wanted to lock up again.


We went to Mel's sister's house and all got the luxury of a shower and a hot breakfast. I even laid down and fell asleep for a minute. I finally felt human again.


We drove to Park City to wait for our team. We walked around the booths, bought a t-shirt, and laid in the grass. Again, I fell asleep. Finally our team came in, we all crossed the finish line together, got our medals and headed for home. Seriously, so much fun.


A couple of favorite moments:
*Jodi doing her hair including hairspray before her run.
*coming up with spy names for everyone along the way.
*sneaking out quietly to the car, whispering to be polite to all the sleeping runners only to have the car alarm go off and fidget around for a while to try and get it turned off.
*Jennifer's hilarious cheers during her after run glow where the words "good form" took on a whole new meaning.
*The queens and kings team that was so friendly but so inappropriately dressed.
*Getting to spend time with my good friends Heather and Jodi. They have been my rocks during my running "career". I'm one blessed girl.

The recovery has been extensive. I was sore longer than I have been for any marathon. It was 5 days before I noticed that I had no quad pain. It was about the same for my calves. The bike and I have been really good friends. I was able to do a 17 and 18 miler before my cycling class on Friday. And then Saturday I decided to run. I haven't had any hip pain and although I had already decided that it was a miraculous healing, it was confirmed when I started to run. I wasn't even a half mile into it before I felt the pain. I figured it would just loosen up so I kept going. It did ease up a little, but by the end was hurting so that I was walking and limping. So I'm right back to where I was before. All I have to say is that miracles really do happen. And for whatever reason it was granted to me, I'll take it.

Monday, June 14, 2010

The Post I've been putting off

I like to think that if I don't say something out loud it won't be true and in this case, I've been avoiding my blog because in some weird way, writing down that I am slightly injured will make it real. I say slightly injured because I really don't know how injured I am because I haven't pushed it to the point where I'm incapacitated.
It all started 3 days after the marathon when I woke up feeling pretty darn good. So I decided to go for a walk. That walk turned into a run. I just couldn't help myself. I'd tell myself that I was being stupid and start to walk. That would last for a block and then I'd just start running again. I'd talk myself into walking again and then find myself running. After about 3 miles I could feel my hip again and decided I'd better quit. 4 more days passed by with me itching to run but being a good girl didn't. Finally it was a week after the big day and I headed out for an easy 5 miler. It turned into a painful 7 miler. I tell you that I have a disconnect between my brain and my body. I iced and stretched but didn't really know what exactly was hurting. It didn't feel like my IT band or my piraformis (both previous injuries). The next week I took it "easy" by doing a 4 miler, 5 miler, and another 7 miler all in pain. By that time I knew that I was really injured. I think I was in denial. I took a week off and went to my chiropractor. His diagnosis was my TFL which turns into the IT band. He worked on it twice and sent me off to run and see how it was. 3 miles was too far. I've been in and out of his office 5 times since the start of this ordeal. Part of the problem is that I haven't felt like I could just quit training although that would have been the smartest thing I could have done right after the marathon. I knew I had the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay coming up and wanted to be completely ready for it. However, I am not.
The Wasatch Back is this weekend. I'm runner 6. My legs are not the easiest. I am feeling like I am just not prepared. I am really hoping that the training from the marathon is still in there somewhere and I'll be able to pull it off. I've been biking outside and going to a killer cycling class. But the longest run I've done since being worked on is 6 miles. And it wasn't pain free. But I have been able to do multiple runs in a day without extra pain like 5 in the morning and 3 in the afternoon and 3 at night. I am really watching my stride, keeping it short and quick. I am stretching and icing and rolling. It is all helping and I am getting better. I just wish I had another month or two to prepare. Unfortunately I don't. So I am going to just try to take it easy and get through it. In a way it feels a little like a first marathon. I'm not sure I can do it because I haven't done it before, and I'm not sure that I'm ready. But hopefully in the end I'll have conquered it and will feel some satisfaction. Really, my only goal is to survive and have fun. And after that, maybe I should take a couple weeks off.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

The day after Christmas

Have you ever noticed that there's a post race let down? No matter if you're coming off the high from a PR or grieving over a tanked race. It's like the day after Christmas. All the preparations are done. It's taken months. Plans and lists are followed religiously. You've done your best, dotted the i's and crossed the t's. Then in just a few hours time, it's over. And while you're left with an awesome medal around your neck (or a living room full of wrapping paper, empty boxes, and bows) you can't help but feel a little sadness that it's over. You know there's next time, but it's over for now. And while when you're young you have the spoils of Christmas to play with the days after, as an adult I might look kind of silly wearing my medal to the grocery store a week later. (That's not to say you can't wear it around the house with doing dishes and such.) And as added insult, there's not supposed to be any running for a week. So the thing that makes you happy and gets rid of the blues is forbidden. What's a girl to do?
Well for me I think that this time is the best for reflection. It's when the highlights seem to shine through. It's when I make plans to fix the things that didn't go well. But mostly I've been hit with this great sense of gratitude. I've become even more grateful for friendship over the last couple of days. My relationship with Heather, my other good friends, my family, and the bloggers whom I've never met, yet share and support me. Today as I reflect, I'm not focussing on possible mistakes or sadness. I'm just reveling in the feelings of friendship. It's a pretty great thing. And it makes me want to be a better friend. Thanks again to all you out there that inspire me and make me want to try again.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Salt Lake Marathon 2010

Another marathon, another learning experience. I'm still not sure what I learned yet. It could just be that marathons are hard and painful. No matter how good the training is, no matter how prepared I feel, it's still going to be hard. It IS 26.2 miles. It's pushing my body to the very limits. And just because I've done it before doesn't mean it's going to be a breeze.

Gotta have a porta potty shot!

Getting ready to start!

The half marathoners (about 4600) and the marathoners (about 1100) start together and then split apart a few miles down the road.


The day started out well enough. In fact the first 17 miles felt really good. Our pace was good and I felt like I could keep it up the whole time. I was loving the rolling hills, beautiful parks and neighborhoods and just the general feeling of race day. It was good! I didn't put on my music right away. I just listened to others runners talking along the way and got in the groove.
Once I started the music however, it carried me. Especially on the closed freeway when the song "Highway to Hell" appropriately came on. I did the salt and really couldn't believe how well my calves were doing. But my hips were aching. And if there's one rule during a marathon it would be that whatever is hurting a little at the half will be hurting 20 times worse at mile 20.

It really started to come apart around mile 18. I did some mental concentration exercises and that worked for a while, but my body took over. That was especially disappointing. I held on until about mile 19 or 20 and then threw up. The last 6 miles were the longest of my life. Those electrical shocks that run through your calves warning you of immense cramping started to show up. And then the cramping started. I did more salt and they went away by the next mile. But my hips continued to get worse. Every step was pure torture. I wanted to quit. I wanted to sit down and cry. I could see my time goal flying out the window. I was holding back my loyal running partner. And really, that was worse than the time thing. She pushed me when I didn't want to be pushed. I was grateful. We finished. There were tears. I'm o.k. though. I will have new rules for Heather to run her own race next time.



My brother and his wife surprised me by being at the finish line. He's leaving in a month for Alabama to finish out his military training and become a helicopter pilot. He's one of those things I thought about during the hard miles. So to see him there brought tears to my eyes. And then there was my sweet family. My husband that was worried and my kids, mom and sister that were proud. Heather's mom really got the water works going when she hugged me and gave me words of encouragement. As she talked about friendship and loyalty the tears just flowed. What a sweet woman. Our time was 5:02. Exactly the same time as the last time I ran this marathon. 32 minutes slower than my time goal, 14 minutes from my best time and 32 minutes faster than my worst.

The only thing that keeps me thinking about the "next time" is that sooner or later I'm going to have a really good experience. When I do, it will make all these ones that fall short of expectations seem worthwhile. I have to keep believing in that or putting myself through this doesn't seem to make much sense.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Taper Madness

I've forgotten how a good taper makes you go a little crazy. The past couple of weeks have been good. We had a really good 13 miler and then the last 5 miles of speed work. Then on Saturday we had a 10 miler. It was really a struggle. Isn't that just how it would be? Since then all of my confidence has seemed to slowly be fading away. And NOT running hasn't really helped. I had a nice 3 miler with some strides toward the end yesterday that was really good, but in my mind I kept thinking that it was only 3 miles. Nothing like 26. I have one more 3 miler before the marathon on Saturday. I know I need to wrap my head around positive thoughts. I'm just having a hard time today. The weather reports aren't helping either. Last Saturday it was predicted that it would be 56 degrees on the marathon day. That sounded just perfect to me. It meant I could still wear my vest with all the pockets and not be too hot. It would also be the temperature we've been training in. And it's my favorite temperature. Yesterday I checked the weather. It was up to 62 degrees. And this morning it's at 72 degrees. 10 degrees overnight. By the time the actual day gets here it will probably be 92. It seems like every single time I run a marathon in the spring, it just happens to be the hottest day of the year so far. And if you know me, I don't like the heat. I know I sound like a negative Nellie right now. I know I need to change my thinking. But past bad experiences at marathons are creeping in. I've been telling myself that this one was going to be different but now I'm not so sure.
So here's my plan for not freaking out:
*Spend 10 minutes each day focussing on positive thoughts. Some ideas to focus on; the great 20 miler we had, how it feels to feel good while having a good pace, the speed work, and the progression of endurance from beginning to end.
*Visualize the day of the marathon being a good run. I'm going to enjoy myself and feel good while running. It will be a good experience.
*I will not check the weather again until the night before and only then to see what I should wear. I will not freak out about warm weather.
*Focus on the things I am grateful for; a great training companion, the blogging community, the ability to run, not being injured, a supportive husband and family, the beauties of nature that I get to see while running, and the life lessons I learn from running.

Well, here we go again!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Monster Month - Done!

I've been dreading and worrying about this month ever since I typed up our marathon training schedule into a calendar. Monster marathon month. On paper it looked intimidating. Especially the 10 x 800M Yasso's that we were scheduled to do after the 20 miler. They were tough, but I did it. Actually, doing it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I need to remember to just take things one day at a time. You'd have thought running would have taught me that lesson by now. Anyway, this is what monster month looked like for me:
132 total miles.
of that 36 were speed work miles,
64 were long run miles,
8 miles ended up being a tempo run to make sure I wasn't injured,
and the rest would be recovery miles or junk miles.
I went to 3 spinning classes, did my kick boxing video 4 times, lifted weights 5 times, and lost 0 pounds. On the up side, I only woke up during the middle of the night hungry once and that was after the 20 mile run.
I doubt I will have another month like this the rest of this year. But I guess you never know.
The good news is that I'm feeling good. Really, really good. I'm more excited for the marathon than nervous. And that may be a first. I guess in a little more than 2 weeks I'll find out!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

I did a no no.

I knew what I was doing was wrong, yet still did it. Have you ever been in a situation like that before? I will admit that this was a far cry from being the first time I've done this and suffered the consequences so I should know better by now, but still...
Last Thursday after I did upper body weights I went for a small 2 mile run, just to loosen everything up. It's hard to just go 2 miles when you feel good and when you get used to running more. So I decided to just add on a half a mile. Just a little .5. Well during that last .5 my IT band decided to flare up. Not just tightening, but that horrid injury mode pain. I tried stretching it, icing it but it really hurt. All day.
Friday I woke up to it feeling good. So I went to my spinning class. No pain at all. I still iced it as a precaution and stretched it really good. But by the evening the pain was coming back. I iced it some more. All the while the real debate was going on in my mind about the next day. We were going to do 18 miles. What to do? What to do?
Quite simply I need running in my life right now. Not only do I physically need it, but it is providing some much need stress relief and time to think. It is a NEED. There are so many things that are out of my control and I'm doing my best to just sit back and realize that everything will work out and I need to quit stressing. But running is what I need right now to help me do just that.
So I woke up Saturday morning and my knee hurt. I got ready and went back and forth in my mind as to whether I should go or not. I really wanted to go. I didn't want to make Heather do the run by herself and more than that, I just really wanted to go. I was excited about the route and the weather. So I decided that I'd go and if the pain got worse, I'd be a good girl and call my husband to come and get me.
18.5 miles later and I was still good. The pain never got any worse and by the end, it was actually feeling a little bit better. I was SO happy! The rest of Saturday was spent icing and stretching and icing some more. It never got any worse.
Now this left me with even more of a question of what to do this week. Should I rest it and ice it and go in and have it worked on? Should I just keep trying it out and stop if it gets bad? The thought of being injured and not being able to run makes me cry. I don't want to make it worse, but I also don't want to stop if I don't need to.
Monday I did my kickboxing video with no pain. I still iced it as a precaution. Then came a scheduled 8 miler on Tuesday. I made me promise myself that I would take it easy and get off the treadmill if it hurt at all. I'm very pleased to say that I made it the whole 8 miles and have never been so happy to go that far on the treadmill. Towards the end I had a big smile on my face and felt great. I iced again as a precaution and rolled it. Even rolling it wasn't too painful.
Today I did upper body weights again and ran 2 miles. Only 2 miles, I didn't want to push my luck. And iced again.
So at this moment, I'm chalking this up to a miracle. I'm being looked after. I think I have an angel on my side right now. I think God knows I need running. With only 4 1/2 weeks until the marathon and only one more really long run, I think I may make it. I'm going to keep praying and having faith that I'll make it to that day strong and ready to run and then stay healthy so that I can start training for the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay in June.
As for my speed workout tomorrow... I think I'll make it an easier tempo run instead and see how I do. It's still 8 miles so I'll be sure to warm up for at least 2 miles. Then a hilly 10 miler on Saturday shouldn't be too bad. Keep me in your prayers and maybe this miracle will stick!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Quotes and Quotables and Mantras

8 1/2 miles of speedwork simply can not be done without music. I've never even attempted it before. That would be craziness. But sometimes we're forced into doing things we didn't think we could do. Halfway through my nine Yasso's my i pod died. Panic set in and I jumped off during the recovery to try and find one of my children's. I wasn't even concerned about what kind of music was on there, I just needed music. After a few minutes of futile searching, I jumped back on and the reality set in that I was going to have to do this without music. I only had 4 left. My mind started doing the math; 2 miles left plus 1 mile recovery plus 1 mile cool down = 4 miles on the treadmill without tunes. It was almost unbearable to even think about. I plugged through the first one o.k. with a song in my mind that worked pretty well. I discovered that I even have to breath while I'm singing in my mind. Weird. The second one wasn't too bad, I switched songs on the music player in my mind and made it through. The third and fourth (really the eighth and ninth repeat) however were kind of torturous. It may have been that my quads were almost screaming at this point and I was getting tired, but I really think it was the music thing. So I switched gears and went to my mantras. I've only said them out loud once to my husband and felt pretty silly. But they work and they got me through the last part of my workout. This is what I repeat in my mind in a slow and calculated way, "soft, relaxed, smooth, fast, strong." I try to picture myself being that kind of a runner. One who's got a soft step, who's limbs are relaxed, that smooth runner who looks like it's no effort at all, of course a fast runner, and one who is strong and will finish that way. Think it's hard to remember? Well, here's how my brain works: every other word starts with "s" and I can remember relaxed and fast. So today was good practice for when I'm really gonna need it. I try to visualize the last part of a marathon with me repeating those words and having them make me into that runner. It's amazing that when I say those words I feel myself relax even when I'm running fast and everything feels better. I tend to tense everything up when I have to go fast and I know that's not good. I've been practicing this for a while but it's always been underneath the beat of music. Today was good practice without any other distractions.
I also read on this blog a great post about not procrastinating those things which we think are hard to do. For me it's eating good. I'm always saying that I'll start tomorrow and her mantra is I'll quit tomorrow. That's my new plan. I can have that cookie tomorrow.
Here's another good one that talks about how habits are so much better than willpower. That's what I really need to do to permanently change my weight. I need a new lifestyle.
What are the things you do to get you through? What's your mantra?

Friday, March 5, 2010

A couple more 16 milers

A couple of weeks go by and so did a couple more 16 milers. Last weeks was supposed to be a 14 miler but we were both feeling so good after the first one and it was such a good route that we decided to just do 3 of them in a row. Last Saturday was absolutely perfect. Everything just seemed to work well and I was really feeling good. My piraformis has been bugging me a little but rolling it out and stretching has really helped it this week. I also rolled my IT bands for fun (ha!) and found that they were quite tender even though I haven't had any knee pain yet, so I've been rolling them a bit too before I get to that point.


Beautiful weather! It was almost too hot for the vest but it has so many good pockets that I needed it. And it warmed up and then cooled down so I was glad I had it. I kept taking my gloves off and then putting them back on. Today was a completely different story though. It was snowing and pretty cold.

But it is simply beautiful no matter the weather. I love running out away from the city and seeing all sorts of beauty. We saw some sandhill cranes take off in front of us last week and today we saw some gorgeous ducks circling around. I love running in the country!

I had issues with my camelbak again this week and need to get a new o-ring for the front seal. I took my husband's backpack kind again and it didn't work very well this time. I did a pretty hard upper body workout yesterday and knew I'd be sore, but the backpack just made it unbearable. I took it off less than 1/2 mile from home and felt like I'd lost a gagillion pounds. I can't do that again.

I also did 8 Yasso's this week. Eight miles of speedwork really takes it out of you! That was a challenge. Next week is 9. Yikes. What's worse is that I would rather do those than mile repeats. I hate those. I guess that's why they're so good for me.

One last thing... I've been really grateful all week for my legs. Even though they're bigger than I want them to be, I'm lucky to have them. I had forgotten about this until we were running last week and needed a distraction during a brutal 7 block uphill section coming back home. We were passing an intersection where I had been in a wreck about 15 years previous. As I began to tell her the details to distract us from the pain, I realized how lucky I really am. It was a really bad accident that totaled the car and yet none of us were seriously injured. It took the jaws of life to get me out and I got some good stitches on my head and glass dug out of my arms and face and legs, but other than that was o.k. When we went to look at the car afterwards, we couldn't see where my legs could have been. It was completely crushed. I didn't run back then, but I never could have started if I would have lost my legs. I have been pondering all this week how blessed I have been and how lucky I should feel to simply HAVE legs. No more fretting about how fat they are or how they're always injured. I just need to be grateful. And I am.